ready to move on

It has been almost 2 weeks since I last managed some time to sit down and gather my thoughts.  I have been busy. 

As mentioned last time, at work I am training everyone on staff how to use the new intranet system I have put together.  Tomorrow is the first official day on the new system so I’m hoping everything goes smoothly.  Then the work to make sure everyone is using it, adding content to it, etc… will begin – but for now, THANK GOODNESS I AM ALMOST FINISHED TRAINING EVERYONE!!  I cannot say that loudly enough.  I am very ready to move on!  I have taught 17 sessions and have at least 3 more to go this week.  Then maybe a make-up session or two.  But I can see the light at the end of the tunnel – finally.

Enough about work though. 

I have had some time this past week to hang out with some friends and family. 

I spent lunch in the dark with one of my closest friends on Tuesday when a terrible storm caused a power outage at the restaurant.  Then we were drenched trying to leave while the monsoon was still wreaking havoc on the city. 

On Thursday, I was able to spend some time with one of my oldest and dearest friends.  We have the same favorite show – LOST!!!!!  So we planned a LOST evening with pizza, girl talk, and of course, watching the endless puzzle that keeps us LOST. 

I seem to have another new favorite show that I enjoy watching with my mother and that is, as mentioned in a previous post, American Idol.  I still can’t believe I’m saying that, but Mom’s good… she has me fully addicted now.  So I’m still pulling for the little Youngin’ which Mom keeps telling me is named David.  I’m still not too good with the names – but I’m improving now that the number of contestants is getting smaller.  But I’m also very much about the Dreadlock Guy… Jason.  He’s different and I like that.  Anyway, those are my top two at the moment.

I was also able to squeeze in a visit with my cousin while she was home on Spring Break.  We just stayed at my house and caught up on life, it was a good time.

But another really cool thing that happened within the last couple of weeks is that I found out that I am going to be the proud aunt of a sweet little baby girl.  I cannot wait for that little one to arrive!  My brother and his wife are expecting her to grace us with her presence in mid-July. 

Over the last several years, some relationships in my family have been damaged by things we’ve said or done to each other.  What should be regular, easy conversation with loved ones has become strained and awkward.  We’ve grown apart, to a point now that I feel we don’t really even know each other very well anymore. 

And not that any one thing can fully fix all that’s been broken, but I am hoping that in some small way this little niece of mine will be the common thread that helps to tie us back together.  Maybe she will help soften our hearts and relax the perfectionist that is trapped in each of us.  I think she’s already doing it and she’s not even here yet.  I know that the thought of her has already started working on me.  I’ve been realizing that sometimes, some things are just more important than proving how right I am.  As hard as it is for me to let go of my disappointments and my ideas of how things should be, I need to give the control back over to God and let him deal with us.  It is way too big for me.  Besides, despite the hurt that sometimes still flares up and even the new hurt that comes, most of it really is small compared to the bigger picture.  And the bigger picture is that family is all we have and no matter how much we hurt each other, we love each other more… now we just need to remember that.

So for holding on to the mistakes, the failures, the times that we’ve all fallen short of expectations, all I can say is… I’m ready to move on.    

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *