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the music tells the story – for the longest time…

This song, “For the Longest Time,” by Billy Joel is now considered an oldie itself and it rarely receives airplay on the radio today but I have heard it multiple times over the last few weeks. Dad speaking to me? Perhaps.  He loved this song.  Another one of those do-wop type of songs with a catchy chorus, an upbeat melody and a sweet message.

It was one of the first songs I remember him loving of the music I was growing up with.  Most always it was him sharing his favorite music with me which had been most popular during his youth, but with this one, it was about him appreciating something from my time.  It was powerful for exactly that reason.  That he found value in something that truly appealed to me, that was part of my own youth and that he loved it.

When I was younger, it was a fun song.  It still is but these last few weeks hearing it play unexpectedly, it brings back such memories that I have actually teared up while driving to work listening to it.  Some of the lyrics to me now take on an entirely new meaning then they used to.  “If you said goodbye to me tonight, there would still be music left to write, what else could I do, I’m so inspired by you…”

Dad said goodbye to me the day he passed… it was actually the last words we said to one another.  And yet, here I am, still writing about his influence on my life.  He still inspires me, he’s still teaching me, in some ways it feels like our relationship has continued to grow and change despite his absence.  I’ve learned more about him and I’ve learned a great deal more about myself which has allowed me to open my heart to my dad’s memory in ways I never thought possible.  His soul is a part of mine forever and though we often struggled to understand that in this life together, I understand it now.

“And the greatest miracle of all, is how I need you, and how you needed me too.”  We needed each other.  At the risk of sounding incredibly conceited here, I know I was his reason for living, for working, for sacrificing. I know I, along with my mother and brother, gave him an unconditional love.  We were a safe place when this world was hard.  And sometimes being that for him was tough.  But we needed him too.  As I’ve mentioned many times before.  His unusual love, his quiet appreciation, the workaholic attitude, it’s what built the foundation for our lives so that we could be better.  We needed him so.  I still need him now, every day.

For the longest time… he was my hero.
For the longest time… he was sick.
For the longest time… he has been missed.
For the longest time… he will hold my heart.

 

LYRICS – Courtesy, Google Play

Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest
If you said goodbye to me tonight
There would still be music left to write
What else could I do
I’m so inspired by you
That hasn’t happened for the longest time

Once I thought my innocence was gone
Now I know that happiness goes on
That’s where you found me
When you put your arms around me
I haven’t been there for the longest time

Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest
I’m that voice you’re hearing in the hall
And the greatest miracle of all
Is how I need you
And how you needed me too
That hasn’t happened for the longest time

Maybe this won’t last very long
But you feel so right
And I could be wrong
Maybe I’ve been hoping too hard
But I’ve gone this far
And it’s more than I hoped for

Who knows how much further we’ll go on
Maybe I’ll be sorry when you’re gone
I’ll take my chances
I forgot how nice romance is
I haven’t been there for the longest time

I had second thoughts at the start
I said to myself
Hold on to your heart
Now I know the woman that you are
You’re wonderful so far
And it’s more than I hoped for

I don’t care what consequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad
I think you ought to know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time

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